Hi, How's it going

This one started as a letter to my daughters. But I felt bad about talking about their dad so I changed the wording a little.

 

Hi,

How’s it going?

Did you know that when I was a kid

I wanted to be a boy?

When I was your age, 

I had a female friend,

We held hands,

she did more,

I felt uncomfortable so I didn’t.

She was Christian.

I wasn’t.

I moved.

We drifted apart.

She’s the person 

who awakened my sexuality.

And then it went dormant.

until I met a man

and

thought I had found my soulmate,

Someone who thought of me as an equal,

Someone who loved me as much as I loved them,

Someone who would fight for me,

Someone who would trust me,

Someone who could be tender and understanding

even when I shied away.

I realized 

over time

that I hadn’t.